♥ Angelicious♥

no no valentine but thinking about my birthday :)

2012-02-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

my 19th is at next month XD i know too soon to be mention but seriously i can't wait to celebrate with all the friends i have in my life,and planning to have it at club XD

and my dad is coming along :D

usually there child won't invite their own father to join in their party but dude,my dad is different!

used to take valentine very seriously but i am not so into it anymore.

it's a day could be haunting me with ton's of memory

so yea.thinking about my birthday now :)

nothing could be important than the people who are around me who i love.

i can't lose any of them anymore.

love life my readers whoever have hard time in their life

nothing could be more important than who raise you up and being there for you no matter what

xoxo

reconcile with the wifey.

2012-01-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

today i had a great time with yiyi and kahyian. they came for a visit on me,thankful for being here because trust me i am bored to death if you are not here,after a failing guiding today hopefully next time u know how to come my house already :) i know i look not fine at all when comes to real but give me some time :)

expecting more visiting or sleep over girls! :)

this lucky girl have a first outing with my family after knowing me so long,my parents love you a lot :) so come visit them more :) kahyian is going off to taiwan for 3 weeks for training or exam for baking,i wish her a very best in this and hopefully we could still stay contact with each other during your trip,you had record my funny reaction for acting like a ah gua speaking mandrin already so yea,watch it when you miss me during at taiwan :)

when is my last time take a photo of myself properly?

there is we go :)

well,today is such a great day,we eat,we laugh we share things and you are a good listener of all my life.you know what bringing me to hell now,and you trying to pull me out from it,thank you and i will take all my time to heal myself from this painful situation. i love you wifey. sorry for everything that i mistaken you.

take care of yourself and come back safety and complete, DONT LOSE WEIGHT,IF NOT IMMA LOOK THE FATTEST XD

xoxo

i love and missing you badly every single day.

2012-01-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

the recently me.i am pretty happy that i drop some weight and i hope to drop more so i can back in shape that i used to.i been spend so long to shape it back but now i am putting effort to make my body back in shape.its day 5 for chinese new year and did any of my chinese reader gets their red pack?i did :) and i decide not to spend it and i want to put it in my bank account.so that if any emergency happened i can use it...my time during chinese new year its been hectic since the first day of chinese new year,i been doing everywhere until yesterday the final place i went is my grandma sister house at Rasa. and yup i got my nail done from there :)

not sure is it pretty for myself but i just like it.my two favorite colours is on my nails :)

now its time to rush my homework before college start :)

good luck angeline!! you can do it even though there is people / stuff is trying to pull you down,

thanks Buddha i am still alive,thank you.

xoxo

even though we are not together anymore doesn't mean i will stop loving you. <3

2012-01-26T01:08:00.000+08:00

hows my reader and dear friends chinese new year so far? mine was just plain same thing for every year,what is your new year resolution? mine is staying with family wherever they go.like visiting relative in the family,i am grateful and thankful for my relatives showing support and going through with me during my hard time.loves you guys always..and today what i did today is visiting old folks and orphan houses.there is many unfortunate people out there is suffering without family celebrate chinese new year and i will be always grateful for what i have right now.

i love my friends and family who being here for me during the times i am going through now.

so i am going to burn it all..about you..so i won't turn back anymore.what you did to me was thousand times painful than you imagine.you may think you weren't wrong at all.but outsider consider this is the biggest sin you ever did. so called "revenge",i am not stupid..i know everything.more than you could ever imagine.you maybe surprise but yes i know this much.

xoxo

night my dear readers

thank you for being there for so long period when you doesn't willing to.

goodbye my forever loves

GONG XI FA CAI MY WORLD :)

2012-01-22T13:17:00.001+08:00

Its dragon year for chinese new year this year.now house is all preparing for reunion dinner,i am not really in the chinese new year mood is because things still the same but..there will be tons of people at my house drinking eating playing fire crackers and all.i am ready for my chinese new year,but no medicure pedicure this year just going to put on a red nail polish that's it,and no hair cutting this year or dye any new colour,still virgin black,so imma just put my extension hair clip with me and a bit of make up on my face.believe me,the weather during chinese new year is hot like fire for me so i wont be really having beautiful hair or anything good.just gonna have oily sweaty face and all..well,it happened once in the year.

so i hope my fellow reader is going to have a good year this year and hope my life is getting better soon,hopefully my study is going well this time..

ever since new year eve i never been really smiling and happy,like i am serious,my friends who reading this,maybe could possibly make you think i am such a two face whore but seriously these days i gone through a lot..but no i am all fine now,i won't lose any hope in my life now and i will appreciate myself even more because who knows world is it really end?why not just appreciate life and goes smile with every single day,yes i do have failing some issue in my life now,but now i am giving my heart a break for every issue and letting all of them go now.so yea,i am good now and letting go all my past and starting everything new now :)

you can live better than me now,you're here not because of me,i know ton's of truth already :)

no need lie to me already :) you have no idea how much do i know :) but never mind ,you already live so much better than me and you have such a good job that you always wish.

so i don't give a fucking fuck anymore :)

xoxo loves always :)

just another way.

you're a bitch dear tummy.or uterus..ovary?

2012-01-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

well well well,yesterday is another day for college,a whole day class.can you imagine that？and unfortunate i am having a unknown bad stomach ache that i can't even imagine where the hell is this from?but...class still goes on when my stomach aching...can't really focus until the moral class....there is this girl i don't even know whats her name anyways.she kind of disagree whoever in the class i guess...i know my moral teacher is not a...more on speaking english kind but this girl.i mean we was doing group exercise of the day.we need to find out moral value in a article..my group was pretty fine..but her group was...i don't know how to explain.when is her turn to present about what she found out..she brag about what she know about usa government? alright bitch you just made my stomach ache freeze for 5 second without feeling any pain just like this!

i was like..woah..bitch...you need to chill the ~~fuck~~ out!

like seriously,i am fine you making the whole drop their jaw and speechless.but you are being disrespectful to the teacher and i know in your mind you must be thinking you just done a teacher who can't speak good english..oh puhlease!
and my moral teacher was awkward,or i should say that she made the whole class into silent mode..and my teacher being awkward and i was like..

and my teacher was asking the whole give her applause because she made her own speech about what US government should do?oh really...and when comes to bahasa malay exercise and study presenting.that girl just goes silent in the class.in my mind was like

"say something like what you did with your fake US accent!"

and she was like silent until the class end..what i feel like doing to her is...

take it bitch!! argghhhh!!!! you made my freaking day!!!

you are the only person who can stop my stomach aching freezing for 5 second two times!!!

in moral class being disrespectful?good one.*thumb up* *roll eyes*

well,i finish my rant :) gotta go :)

loves reader,have a nice day :)

xoxo

2012-01-17T17:22:00.000+08:00

Just thinking what to type for my moral essay,tomorrow have to pass up..

i am actually enjoying being confuse right now....lol..

tomorrow going to be having class from 9am to 6pm. all day long..

but as long i can busy at this moment,not wasting any time.i'm grateful.

chinese new year is around the corner now and i finally got few cloths

how about my dear readers?

and i recently love leopard print shirts :) will i look very mature in it?

gotta get busy for my moral essay now

xoxo

The first day of college..awkward?

2012-01-17T01:52:00.000+08:00

this is how i going to plan to react the first moment when i am going to college..but in the end...

i could not get to sleep much,or i should say i actually din't sleep because i am so exited about my class for the next day and so and so.but in the end eyes wide open until 7am.i went to clean up and myself,being fresh and wake my mom up for fetching me to college.....

(yes got licence but still not driving yet,or i should say i wonder do i still remember how to drive?)

when everything is done,i get into the car,what i saw is....

BIG FAT JAM OUTSIDE THE ROAD..

I was: "i am so gonna be late for sure."and the jam cause my mom fetch me to college at 9.30 or more than that i guess....because i was trying to sleeping in the car while the jams is going on,but failed...

when i got into the class,well,my lecturer is late too because..he stay at batu caves,which is mean near by my house as well XD

well,so far everything was..like...

don't wanna talk much about it already.

x.x

and there is some homework already for me.great lets get busy! <3

moral class is quite fun :)

learning something :)

i found out i am quite a loner right now.because i am getting weirder and weirder day by day..

sigh..i guess people find me weird too...sad..

need to change now.so much....

gah...change...angeline..change...

xoxo night peeps <3

damn...

ITS TOMORROW!

2012-01-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is the day back to college,feeling weird now..when holiday,i wish i could just go back to college.but meh,now i am really going back to college now..for my new semester study,it's time for me to work more harder,because my result came out few days ago,and i am so frustrated...

like this.

lol i am not smiling that time anyways..i was bloody sad and worried,and guess what was i worried?

my study have to retake and that is not even my favorite subject some more.yes computer graphic.great now i have to retake again and my parents have to pay rm1500 for it,and i am sad and disappointed to myself.because i wasted my parents money due to my failure.and this just make me wanna be more hardcore in study XD..serious,i am not joking.

in this situation i just need to study more to avoid those negative energy situation,because staying hanging like this,i am going to suicide.night my dear peeps

xoxo

2012-01-05T03:15:00.000+08:00

The best mood to blog for me is midnight nowadays..well..being lifeless and wanted to go back school so badly,today is the first day of school for my little two babies :) they are growing too fast.. tears a bit when i see them ready to school with uniform..well their new school is nice and good.just the canteen is a bit.errr...
well,as long they can study hard then i am not worrying anymore :)

this is for you girl :)

xoxo good night :)

rant

2012-01-03T00:59:00.000+08:00

frustration from this shit before new year eve until now.

thanks for the person who started this and the person who end this.

i end up nothing to say and full with hates and speechless

just sigh that everything happened in a short time and i don't have plenty of time to explain.

i doesn't willing this to happened but seriously when it happened,i never have chance to explain.

god,if you really there for this person,also tell this person human need respect and explain what exactly happened..

damn,after so long i been build trust with you,in the end have to end up just from that?

like really, i feel like slap you and ask you do you own a brain in your head?

why can't you fucking listen to me!

it's sad to been through this..

GOD WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS RIGHT NOW.

why let me face this again when i never do anything wrong.

fuck my life la :'(

A Thousand Years

2012-01-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed that I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

for my darling..my dearest...always the love of my heart. even thought we went apart. :'(

i'll miss you forever.

2012-01-01T02:10:00.000+08:00

Mr Gerard was my advertising principle lecturer for my second semester,he was the calling himself a pain in the "backside" for our class,during lessons he teach us,its fun and happy,but sometime's he stress on us for thinking new idea's for assignment projects,it drives me crazy somehow. but in the end we come out some better idea than before..he is the most wonderful person and as a lecturer,he educated all of us very well.but today on 31/12/2011...he is dead due to car accident.i was shocked.and cried.i mean like he is the wonderful person but gone just like that.he is gone.i was crying like almost a day for him,dad was calling me a drama queen crying for a lecturer,like seriously,he gave me a lot of advice for how to avoid bad person in life and what is the real life is,he is the one who say we have to live in our life like everyday is like the last day of living in your own life,he teach me a lots of thing beside AP,he teach all of us how to work as a PR, advertiser and everything,even though just basic but he teach until all of us understand,he is a best teacher could pay so many effort to teach us and ask us to read newspapers and watch news from the tv to learn how to speak better english.

you will be miss forever mr gerard,what you told and advice me i will remember forever.

i will keep this book forever.

happy new year and goodnight peeps

xoxo

people who don't know me,they call me a drama queen,middle finger up to the air.release your own feelings is not a mistake,judging people who don't fake,you're fake.

Rant in the middle of the night,or morning?

2011-12-31T02:04:00.002+08:00

i could not hope for anything better now.i mean like.it just happened so bad and no one could see this happened or even expect,but for what i see is a teasing joke turns to a disaster,damn i rant a lot about my life right now because now past 12am,it's the last day of 2011,what did i wish for 2012?don't effing ask me because i have no plan and i ~~fucking~~ lost at this moment right now,i cannot ask people not to give up on me when they already do,seriously,i did not say i am the perfect 100% but i put effort on something i really care on and want it to be wonder and under happily ever after,but sometime's things just could not work out as you wish or hope,~~fuck~~ it.

seriously for me,today,i mean yesterday until now i never smile and i never felt any better but getting worst.just feel like rant it out loud to my neighbor and ~~fucking~~ slap on my own face.damn,how bad i can feel now is like,build up somebody to trust you once like they used to,even thought not 100% but at lease 80%,i do have a ugly mistake and past but i don't want them to stop me moving forward in my future,but things could pull you back to hell due to your mistake or past,so readers,don't do silly mistake could just pull you back to hell and you would never have a chance to change,because some people would think that you trying prove that you are trustworthy but the thing is,they still do not trust you?my life is like a story book and i am living in a chapters now and i am going through something i really don't want to but things change,all we can do is just facing the fact that,no matter how we do,we could not get it back when it explode out of sudden,plus,even though you wanna come clean?impossible,there is some people won't wanna trust you from what they see.like it feels like thousands of knife stabbing in your heart,your mind and it could kill you if you just can't hold it.

now i just have no idea what to go on,all i could do is focus on my family and i really fragile like a red wine glass.my mind is blank.all i can do just rant about my day right now,cool huh?its been up and down like ocean waves.but all i hope is having a life without fighting and crying.but it just so hard to achieve somehow?

it's 1.54am in the morning right now,i am on my bed with my notebook (so called lap top) on my lap typing how i feel now,on my blanket on,but still feeling cold,maybe because i am lonely right now...i could cry like any second or minute right now.but i just keep learning how to hold my tears right now.and looking back this years.really,i feel down,all my effort..just went down back to the beginning,no...just end...i hope i can be alright asap,because college is going to start,it's going to be new semester,stress works and assignment coming and my result coming out.i can't wear that shield that keeps me warm every night anymore.now i feel terrible..i hope when i close my eyes and open my eyes again,it's going to be just a dream.pretty pretty please buddha

goodnight,oh?should be morning readers,xoxo

~~try to think why is this scar on my wrist ever exist,you know why.if this is all about a lie,this would not be happened and i did not need to stay there and explain for you.~~

2011-12-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

2011-12-25T18:21:00.002+08:00

2011-12-24T22:39:00.001+08:00

hang over is bitch.

i hate this...never gonna happened again

2011-12-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

HI bloggie..well,whenever i thought i have something to write about in my dusty blog..i always drag and i thought the more i drag then the more i think i can share more about it..

but somehow..in the end when i am in front of the computer..

my brain just went blank and...

i am serious,when you thought you have something to share and you think you could type like a boss..then nothing you can type or you just realize your day is just normal then more the other..and you just fucking don't get it that why can't your life be more like those famous people who are around you...or i would think..should i just grab my bag and pack my cloths and my lappie along..and just adventure! but in the end, my brain told me "bitch,you did not have any way to earn by yourself and are you gonna escape your house by using your parents earning money? come on!" then my body just broke down.like seriously!!!!! i am like saving my pocket money but in the end i bought my brother a Beats headphone like cost me around 2k something due to i upgrade something in the earphone..damn i love my brother so darn much that moment and even he treat me like a piece of shit somehow?

well,even my life are not like those pretty girls like with thick make up,but i still loving my life more than others who stuck in the house more than 24 hours do.. :)

xoxo lifes and readers who reading it :)

OMG THIS MADE MY DAY xDDDD

2011-12-19T18:11:00.004+08:00

2011-12-18T16:07:00.000+08:00

NOT A GOOD DAY TODAY..

NOT HAPPY :'(

FUCK THIS SHIT

I HATE MYSELF AND HATE MY LIFE.

2011-12-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

i feel like..weird now? because i feel like my life is just so boring and..i have a confession..
like i am not a spoiled brat or whatever just like i don't understand my parents..family stuff?
my life is not like what you,my dear only reader saw from other blogger like pretty like speechless?
handsome until he can catch your breath..my life is full with my complaint here because when i am happy..
i don't blog pretty much..damn this shitty feeling right now..yes holiday and without outing movie's or whatever
it can make me think negative...or maybe i will kill myself without a reason before christmas..
i am like a nobody now...watching united state ,taiwan or hong kong drama..what the fuck man...like seriously..damn this shitty feeling! why can't my life like can't seems to leave without a car? damn..i want a car daddy.. :( i know i know,sounds like spoil brat again..but i can't work also?please god..lead me to some where else..
i guess this is it for tonight,housework for tomorrow sunday.damn..night if there anyone reading me.

My holiday interest..

2011-12-15T17:44:00.000+08:00

Holiday is here already..and christmas is here very soon..

hmm...but house no maid now have to help doing every single thing at home :)

but i do have fun doing everything in this house.

like work out for the whole day :)

pheww :)

beside staying home being bored i guess..going out for a movie?

dont know??

well,this month a full of celebration :)

christmas,happy new year and friend birthday :D

i am happy to join every single one of it :)

well...being lifeless..and nothing to do..

should i grab my dad's car and drive?? XDD

can't imagine.

here to give you a kiss.. *chu~*

during holiday i have some drama to share :)

i love to watch them and i chase them like what the hell man..

guess what..gossip girl,new girl and taiwan drama is my favorite nowadays..

this show i am going to finish watch

it teach me a lot of relationship knowledge

:) hmm....

this show is effing awesome for me :)

but i guess not much people watching this right?

hmm :)

gossip girl i cant wait the next episode :)

blair and chuck will be together?

should i continue write blog? ever since my life is not so interesting..

and.. ??

xoxo

current me.

2011-12-10T01:04:00.001+08:00

what am i writing and posting

2011-11-23T20:36:00.000+08:00

well,today is the final presentation for creative thinking

like finally i am done with you.

i love this awesome shoe but need to use elephant glue to paste it together because

i bought it from online.so cacat la.

can't trust them anymore.no more buying shoe online

Aliana perfect drawing :)

compare with mine,you're cuter than mine :)

my life just boring and boring and nothing special..

please.i need my life to be more meaningful to blog about like i used to be.

Life

2011-11-21T20:49:00.000+08:00

well for my elders cousin sister wedding,

i went for pedicure and medicure for my lovely finger nails :)

but turn out something weird anyway :\

well the wedding and everything was perfectly fine and the couple is beautiful pair

wishing you both have a new journey and living happily forever <3

something hilarious to post it up :)was having so much fun with the siblings and cousins

after so long some more :D

the bestie always and forever :)

my bridesmaid look,well,woke up at 5am and just exhausted.

and yeap!i gained weight. wtf.

the bride :) beautiful :)

well i wore a pretty nice black dress for this wedding.

quite sad for the whole wedding part because i was pretty neglected by everyone.

since few weeks ago.i been neglected by many people,include college mate and cousins,

sounds a bit hypocrite but i felt left out and i still feeling left out :\

i hope i am thinking too much but its true :(

what i did wrong in my life like seriously?

curious to know and scare to know.

2011-11-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog lately.

being sick and stuff with homework with me.

gahhh assignment.

and i know there is not much people come here reading right?

hello? *waving*

is there anybody here?

AP courses is soon to be end and i am soon to be learning new thing in new semester

well,AP still not over yet, booooo

alright i got to go :)

xoxo

For my haters and whoever dont know me but judge me like you know me.

2011-11-03T15:57:00.002+08:00

*dancing*

this is me <3

2011-10-31T00:07:00.000+08:00

had a beautiful bliss lunch when at one utama today.

feel relax at this new restaurant that just opened while waiting.

its really good salad with a eggs taste like cheese sause in it.

for sure that i am going to eat this salad if i go that restaurant.

but until today..i guess my anger has reach to a limit already...

because i found out i just explode my anger on him today,it's scary,can't be forget or even forgive.

i don't know why,it just scare the shit out of me after i throwing such an anger and attitude.

i had never react like this and feeling sorry for so long.

sorry for the man who kena by me..

i never meant it..like seriously i am not being over react or something

but it just damn unreasonable and childish.

for four years,i never meant to act like that,

i dont know where is this negative energy came from and seriously.

i am deeply in apologies for whatever happened today,i buy back the beers.

seriously,its awkward to meet you now.

2011-10-29T13:14:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.if there is anyone here to read my blog..

been busy with my assignment.neh :\

besides that really nothing interesting happened.my life is that boring?

beside doing homework,i am watching gossip girl season 5 and i even watch All start america top model

:o so dramatic la that show i mean the america top model show.

and catch myself watch jersey shore.when can i stay my life interesting ARGH..

feel like quitting my blog ever since there is nothing special to catch up :\

miss high school times..

haih...

I love you even you are being unreasonable.

2011-10-20T01:49:00.001+08:00

you don't accept whatever i said even from the beginning.even since i am 18 years old already....

i understand the love you show and i clearly feel that, but sometimes that is just being over extra for me to handle for how you hurt this every single time.

you never let me talk my own opinion its true.face it.like seriously from now on i will keep everything with my own,i will never ever blame whatever happening in my life now,i will handle myself.you judge me by not knowing what is the real story behind,you said it out so proud "remember what you said baby girl,cause you said different things last year"

for me,this is humiliation for me.you talk so sarcastic at me and

i still don't understand why is this have to

happened?

i will list it out...

I will take responsible whatever happened in my life from now on
You can judge me hurt me as much as you can because from now on i am harmless.
I will know what happened and what to do if my future kids being like how i treat you.

I will act like i give a damn on what people /any families members told me i should be appreciated what i have now.
I will keep my promise that i will remember what i said for every single time

I will pretend nothing happened even thought i am having a huge drama with me.
i will smile and never let you see me cry.
I will study like fuck and try not to fail any single subject i am doing now in college.
I know how to handle my relationship life so leave that to me,i have that right but you don't
I will try to look for a job from now on.

I guess i just reborn.Mom,Dad,i took and accept the bullshit whatever both of you told me.

like both of you know me so well,actually,both of you don't.

I will remember tonight,i cried so hard for both of you.

and thanks for being sarcastic after i cried.

i will take this lesson forever,i will remember this and pretend what you want me to be.

as usual.never gonna hate both of you.i love and respect both of you.

tonight is the night to be remembered.

(stop saying i am being dramatic or over react,i will slap you on the face with my shit in my hand)

good night lovely,xoxo.

welcome to the "NEW" me start from tomorrow.

Monday sucks

2011-10-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

i hate you presentation. to the max.

2011-10-09T00:00:00.002+08:00

sigh...true love...

2011-10-07T20:02:00.000+08:00

Now i feel like.shit..now how...i feel so helpless right now and i am so worried and so up tight!

just have a strong feeling that there is something bad gonna happened anytime?

i feel like..what the hell..and..guess what i just am so helpless hopeless and even disappoint what just happened in my daily life right now i feel so sick..and i am so worried..

this is so not helping..what should i do?

Good night peeps.

2011-10-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

self confession.

2011-10-05T17:12:00.000+08:00

My 2011 really changes a lot in my life,i feel like things just change in any second that you never thought.

i am actually terrified right now.i feel like there is no sparks in my life.i feel died by doing the same things everyday.wish to have a car but i do not have a fuck gut to discuss with my dad because i don't think i am aw well driving person at all,which i got this car licence for my past mystery man.but in the end i din't get to use it and i got dumped.life is such a bitch.true and i agree it and i seriously emo right now.

i miss my smile i used to smile like a little girl all the time but life forced me to be so mature when i can't even be, unfair and Fuck My Lovely Life.

just thinking and wondering why am i so emo nowadays...i feel like my soul falling apart by slowly and i have no idea what to do to continue make my life better,i feel so tired,not sleepy,i am just tired of life,thinking of suicide before but it just too stupid because who knows one day..i will be better?but when?

Been faking my smile so long when i am darn fucking emo,just in college in family with friends i also smiling and i guess my friend notice why am i so over react and laugh for no reason,i need to visit a therapist because i am terrified that i have some mental problem right now because i am so nerve broke down and i have no idea how to continue or stop

i wish i could scream and yell with tears whatever i can but i just can't squeeze any tears anymore because i am hurting too deeply..i can't seem to accept all the things been happening in life,yes it maybe just sucks for a while or forever?how i know?and i am so so sad :'(

so friends of mine and family of mine who interest reading this.

i am going to tell you,i can't really cry it out my feeling by mouth because i am too hurt right now.

if you see i am fine,trust me,i am so proud of myself because i can fake it so good.

i am slowly dying inside.

God, safe me from pain please.i need your hand to help me get out such a painful place and memories.

:'(

xoxo

i am going to hong kong while november. i hope i can just throw away my feeling and get to travel like i used to be.and i don't need to cry anymore.stay strong angeline.stay alive.

2011-10-02T20:53:00.000+08:00

what a family day for today...i went for temple waiting grandparents for three times.

which is mean...get in the car,get out the car and enjoy the heat and joy sticks ash around me...

and i have no right to complain...

just being tired and walk around...

Went to one utama buy some food for my brother sister supper in the night XD

what a fun day to grab whatever food you like :)

junk food instant noodle's and FOOD :p

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and nowadays...i feel down for no reason,i just being emotional.

being quiet..sad...and there is so many things upset me nowadays..

about housework in the house.my mom din't arrange well,like..my brother don't need to help at all...me and my sister have to do it.

like..is this fair? so i asked my brother to help.in the end.mom scream that no one need to do since i ask my brother to do..

like seriously mom....what is this..

do i have to do everything and your dear son just sit over there eating junk food go hang out with friends.

and me being such a maid?what the ****

and college.your assignment are getting more and stressing me :(

Arthur Days

2011-09-26T17:49:00.000+08:00

say hi :)

today din't went college because i ill already,and...

advertising class got new project. sigh

what to do? assignment never stop until holidays :'(

i feel weak now.sigh.

about the arthur day,let the picture do the talking.

and i feel so honored to be there and i had a lot of fun also

Taio you are my god. loves xoxo

it's wednesday for the tought week :\

2011-09-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

hey long time no see :)

today just done my creative thinking presentation,i guess i am better in this time :)

lucky my dear lecturer was on apple lap top doing her duty and no harmful judging this time :)

i am so luckyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D

and in my creative thinking class,there is a guy kept asking nonsense question

when i was presenting i feel like saying :

well,studies are all so tight for me :\

wish me luck.

xoxo

loves.

god,please let my parents buy me a car. :( my wish please come true

Life is hard but you can create your own happiness even your life is such a bitch

2011-09-20T00:33:00.000+08:00

Today is monday >.<

beginning of a tough week for me.been busy assignment non stop and going to be nervous non-stop, i just did my english class presentation and advertising presentation,i seriously in hate with presentation,i never like it because that is too hard for me to speak something i don't really feel interest to everyone,that will be very awkward when you can't say something and you just lag like computer over there,people are looking at you all in your face is AWKWARD LIKE SHYTTT!!

but what i really experience today is,my english presentation was a bit straight because teacher want us to improve more in this so we can success but sometime really hurt to learn that you are not really good at something you just can't do it?

Well my presentation for english was okie lar...(not really)

but when advertising part presentation is really really tough and OUCH!

when my lecturer giving comments about my group presentation.

i was like..

and i have a strong feeling to tell him that..

like seriously -.-

but i will try hard improve more,mr Manual i maybe hating you now but i know that i will love you soon because i know whatever i studied at college now is soon to be using in my life while working out there,but still, don't be so harsh at me and all of the classmate's

p.s: i don't hate my lecturer at advertising principle class.

even though he make us like this all the time in the class

but we still love you Mr. Manual.

wish me good luck for my creative thinking presentation.

sigh.

night people.xoxo

loves lots

Old song but lyrics is meaningful.

2011-09-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

记忆像游乐园般精采
我们像对恋人相爱
幸福是应该不会是当然
只怪我们都太贪玩
思念像云朵般柔软
而你静静躺在我胸怀
我像是任性走失的小孩
紧紧抱着孤单

我们都曾经明白也都曾经遗憾
错过了爱就难以重来
不要害怕去坦白怕容易被你宠坏
忘了该与不该
到哪里找回真爱找回所有遗憾
爱的真相就能够解开
多给我一些片段拼凑未知的意外
失去记忆最初的爱

我是被你遗忘的精采你却带着记忆离开心跳是我们唯一的呼喊提醒我们曾经相爱你的笑像阳光般灿烂小心翼翼藏在我口袋在我脆弱时给了我温暖谁也无法取代但我们都曾明白也都曾经遗憾一旦错过就难以重来不要害怕去坦白怕又容易被宠坏忘了该与不该到哪里找回真爱找回所有遗憾爱的真相就能够解开多给我一些片段拼凑未知的意外失去记忆最初的爱

2011-09-16T01:30:00.000+08:00

2011-09-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

assignment is a bitch,really...

English 103 assignment
Creative Thinking assignment
Advertising Principle assignment
Graphic Design assignment

just wish time can kill me to death,assignment,life and something else.please.

let me breath

xoxo

2011-09-09T23:23:00.000+08:00

I hate the fact that i can't take any junk food anymore,not even diet coke.my parents had request me to diet,must thin already,my mission is i can wear beautiful on my cousin wedding i feel so sad right now because i have too many things to do and my body is not feeling well these days..i have no idea what happened, is it facing lap top too much? i feel anxious and i have no idea what happened.I have tons of assignment to do,i feel worried because some issue is keep happening and i afraid that i can't get to do it nicely,i don't ask for 100 but at lease 70 to 80 for better la.

Lately falling in love with her :)

awesome singer :)

Why is yummy food must be fattening,i hate it! it makes me suffer like shit!i guess my blog post is gonna be like diet diary or something,but i just need to lose weight,not some weight BUT TONS OF WEIGHT! you guys have no idea how much i need to lose man, well just hope that i can be so so thin while on my cousin wedding,and daddy said he will buy me tons of nice cloth if i thin already :D wish me luck babe's

loves xoxo

2011-09-09T15:21:00.001+08:00

advice for girls and boys

2011-09-06T10:24:00.000+08:00

My September Wish

2011-09-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

Just have to be honest,my holiday yes,it was a great days for not going to worry about the assignment (even there is bunch of it) but i have to say.my holiday sucks,i din't get to go to my friends raya open house,i never get a beautiful day out or whatever.just wish i can go back to college as soon as possible :(

My september wish is, i wish my dad can be more open minded even he is not that narrow minded,sometime's i hope i can invite my friend,order some pizza and drink or whatever in my living room ONLY,i don't ask for much,just that. sigh..

well this made my day, MALAYSIAN PRETEND LIKE A SINGAPORE VIDEO,xDD

2011-09-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

well holiday was boring for me anyways.like seriously boring.

i have discovered the sim game from facebook :)

addiction percentage is 100 % for me :)

i never stop playing it until they gave me this just now

-.-

speechless like omg though

anyone who are on sim,do add me as neighbor i need muze and buzz -.-

and before holidays my graphic teacher had gave me some tattoo tracing to do during raya holidays, it was driving me headache all the time i have no idea how many active fast i had taken. 0.0

what am i gotta get after being so hardworking from this?

like seriously i won't straight away pass from this!!

and you know what,my bladder infection is back after few months after i got it before!

bought some pain killer and some Ural from pharmacy to clean my bladder or whatever shit is it. just wish me better please,it so so painful while the pain comes,

people,drink more water if not you gonna suffer like me!

what you gotta get beside having pain?

thats why,take care yourself people

xoxo night,

welcome september,be nice to us okie

bye

2011-08-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

i love both of you :)

we grow together do everything together.never leave each other :)

thanks for visiting me last night,it was a surprise for me,i was so freak out!

you guys made me scream after so long..let me spoiled my image while i was on the phone -.-

Tuesday Morning Jokes :D

2011-08-23T09:07:00.002+08:00

this is damn hilarious XDD

kids nowadays :) so cute

and oh oh!! the baby Yerin from korea knows how to say daddy in korean language!!

2011-08-22T22:35:00.001+08:00

i bought this cleaner tissue from daiso

it cost me 5 buck just to clean my laptop when it has a fucking dust on it

i have no idea why did i bought it from the first place since i don't really use it wor..

never mind,as long not useless then good already,it clean my laptop too :)

*thinking positive*

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well today i have two presentations,i hate it,and i was so stress and confused what should i talk about..somemore advertising and damn shitty to me...i read the whole thing but i just can't understand also

but luckily...

me and chui li drawing :D

while people present what is advertising,and this is what we been doing 0,0

and trillion thanks for those who wrote good comments to me for the presentation,i accept the bad too because i know i am bad :\ i will improve i swear :)

thank you for being nice to me :)

well,it's time to let my brain relax...finally for a while..

good night :)

loves lots

xoxo

XDDD for the bitch who mess with me whatever she said

2011-08-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

the only thing are not fun studying college is rushing the assignment.like seriously not fun :\

second semester had just start few days ago and i had met few lecturer are not really humor as previous lecturer i met.well,study also have to be serious sometime's *giggle

now on my hand i have advertising principle studies and on monday i have to present what i had learn from the first two chapter i guess *scratching head*

and another homework have to be done on monday is a essay about introduce myself presentation :\ and i have to hand up to Mr nick before monday as well.so my weekend sucks :o oh? not forget to be mention,my creative thinking class was like i had tons of sleeping pills and have to be awake to listen everything from 9am to 12pm 0.0

now i have to start doing my essay about introducing myself.before more suffer to come.

hours ago before planning to do i imagine i can be like

but in the end.......

i been looking my screen for hours and finally i plan to cook myself brunch first.

:\ don't smack me

i am so dead am i?

2011-08-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

lately just fine..what i been doing is being emotional,i decided with myself choose to close up about my relationship status now,no point for letting anybody knows,am i engaged?am i dating or am i even single or drill in a complicated relationship?not important anymore and nobody will get a answer,caught me dating?whatever,spot a ring on my finger?you can stay curious forever,because i had learnt a new lesson,my family is a type of family to educated their children by being good image to let people not know much of my family,i decided,ever since my father look into my eyes and said his speechless,i do cried and knowing my life has to change now,whatever i did is mistake for them,which is my family,i have to stop giving people to have chance to gossip about me and my parent,my life is complicated enough and what happened around me is not good,life is just like that,you can't learn it from book but experiences,i experienced gossip,bitch fight from older cousin,not really a bitch fight but "teaching me a lesson"by what i should tell or what i shouldn't tell but surprise me a lot this she can't even teach her sister this well,i love my family even i feel like hating them somehow,i can exactly tell you that both of my parent don't know the inner me,they judge by what they see,whenever they said “you are my daughter of course i know who you are even you try to hide the real you."well,i have to 100% sure they don't know that another type of me,i am a girl who give whatever i can in everything,even there is people don't know how to appreciated me but i just don't feel like fighting back just to let them know how important that my character is.i learnt,i taste the pain of losing something i want the most,i have brain,i know who know and i know who don't know me.i just have to say,i'm loving all the people but i have to say whatever happened during my semester break had just become a huge impact of my life.i learnt to be quiet,learnt to stop being "too" open minded,let me remind my dear reader one more time,i love my family even they judge me wrong sometimes and i love whoever appear in my life even you're of of my haters,i don't hate you because i don't have much time to be as free as you.

i always stay in my room searching social internet like facebooks,twitter or tumblr to spent in my time,i even rather to download movie's or drama's like gossip girls or pretty little liars to watch just to stay in my room,sometime's i even eat my dinner in my room,i choose to hide in my room.but now i decide to step out the room spent some time with my family while diner time and all..like watching television and chit chat are nice :) imma do it :)

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Semester two is coming on next monday,class starts very soon and i actually feel glad to do that because staying home and doing nothing being lifeless just wasting my time.

if my sem break can be monthly like 1 or 3 months i sure getting a part time job,but my sem break just very little,only 2 weeks...

and my car test is on next wednesday.today is the day of learning car but i just...

a bit shitty nervous and wow i am so dead..next tuesdays is my day already.i hope monday i can practice gao gao..adn practice the exam scene..

so please do pray for me..i don't wanna fail this time..

*finger cross*

goodnight,loves xoxo

2011-08-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

well hey yea people :) it's going to be 2am and tomorrow got mass comm exam

screw it :x i know i am going to fail.tomorrow will still going to library to study :x

shhh...well..

i am having a very hard time here,driving test soon to be coming on 16

wish me luck :)

and i am having exams..i mean..i screwed every single presentation of mine

even there is people who told me, "you did a good job"

i feel thankful for saying this even is so obvious until i can tell myself did a worse presentation i never expect.

it was a long stories,it's about team work.that's it.not much to talk about it.

and guess what :) i found my primary school friend at my college

he looks so handsome and tall..

guess why i remember him :)

because he stole my fried chicken when i was standard 5

and now i am haunting him fried chicken everyday XD

he's a very serious person when things comes to serious :)

loves him :) xoxo

friend la friend la

and this is my team members of today :)

i am sorry to aoki keep get me in his group because i am such a trouble maker :(

zoe was cute girl anyways :)

apple always the one who made me laugh and i love her very much too :)

well guys,as aoki said,we did a very good job already :)

like seriously,you can ignore this :)
this is the scene when we were in primary school

"you stole my fried chicken asshole!!" angie said

"who cares!!!" shaun said XD

after the fun part,there you go now

i'm emotionally damaged because i am so confused right now

so many things can come into my brain like it can make me a genius but actually can't :\

college is not like high school drama but like a movie -.-

surprise scene keep popping out

for me,i am just going to learnt not to take people business la..

juts stay out of it,and you going to be safe :)

if not, you are going to know something that you don't wanna know.

i experience that,it's bad and made you feel special.not really that special but weird special,like nobody going to trust what you saw and talk about it :\

thats it whoever read this out there

love you good night xoxo

Rip Any Winehouse

2011-07-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

my first driving confession

2011-07-23T17:51:00.000+08:00

have a strong feeling to talk about my first driving expression.

it was funny for you guys but shame like fuck for me

i hate the clutch and i step wrongly the break but step to speed

well,looking back..its so shy to think back.XD

won't be doing that unless i purposely :D

pray hard on monday please let me pass the trials

so i can drive faster!

2011-07-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

today is a very tough and unique day for me,i don't usually wake up and prepare to wake up my sister and my father,very unusual day for me,i woke up at 5.30 am,washing my face and get done,and wake up my sister,make her tidy up with her uniform and lastly wake my dad,was a very "not what i usually do" day

everything done,i was have a driving lesson in a early morning,was nervous to drive and stuck jam in high way while going up the bridge,i was terrified and worry that i won't be able to get up and my engine will die

it just kill me to death,but luckily everything was going fine when i was in a very sleepy condition,using 50 minute drive to Puchong Driving School :\

the first thing i do is drive to the mountain,i have to stuck there like 3 minute.and make sure myself not falling down.plus.if i fell down,i fail,and other thing cannot be done.like seriously scare la!!but i still fine drive through that shit :) happy and clapping hand :)

i used to blame this car..why can't we all just get along?

i used to have a problem that how to actually turn the car to parking..used to confused and kick the car,you have no idea how much i used to hate this stupid car.i kept blame who the fuck who create this manual car actually XD..

but it's ok,the car park done :) i feel so happy,

and the three point turn,i guess you guys whoever been through this might think this is easy but for me is have to catch the timing when still being sleepy condition :\

after practice so well afterward :)

teacher finally allow me to eat :)

after all everything teacher gave me a good rate.and i am going to have my trial next monday.

wish me lucks babes :)

oh yea,after my driving lesson i actually went college for class :)

see? i change my day today.so unusual me

is it good? or?

well,i need to sleep,good night,whoever are reading this.loves

2011-07-20T10:07:00.002+08:00

Skies are crying,
I am watching,
Catching teardrops in my hands.
Only silence, as it's ending,
Like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel
Like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.
Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.

As the smoke clears,
I awaken,
And untangle you from me.
Would it make you feel better
To watch me, while I bleed?
All my windows still are broken,
But I'm standing on my feet.

You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.
Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.

Go run, run, run.
I'm gonna stay right here,
Watch you disappear.
Yeah, ohh.
Go run, run, run.
Yeah, it's a long way down,
But I am closer to the clouds,
Up here.

You can take everything I have,
You can break everything I am,
Like I'm made of glass,
Like I'm made of paper.

Ohhh

Go on and try to tear me down.
I will be rising from the ground,
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.
(Like a skyscraper)
Like a skyscraper,
Like a skyscraper.

this one actually can represent my feelings :\

2011-07-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

肚子很涨很痛...haizz..我的脚今天开花，因为我今天和家人们一起去了一个不知名却远到一个不行的瀑布之旅，还野餐了..那里的石头长满了青苔还滑滑的，我一个不小心跌在一个小石头和划伤了我的脚和手..屁股疼 >。< 算了...

对不起啦，我是酱粗鲁的咯..不过你们看到我的脚了吗？虽然是个很小的伤口但是很痛，无语的是..没人理会我的脚..不过今天的瀑布之旅我只是喜欢一边吃自家的椰浆饭和炸鸡和把我受伤的腿浸在如此凉爽的河水中...爽啊～电话在那段期间一点讯号都没有,很原始一下...

弟弟就在那里抱怨怎么叔叔的电话有讯号而他的没有

妈妈说 :"他们用的是天地通！"

我就讲炸到！

我最不喜欢就是不穿鞋踩在那如此恶心的地面

不是我好命过头而是因为我在开始的时候看到一个已经装满粪便的尿片在地上

所以..我觉得很恶心觉得很浑身不自在..

很PHOBIA勒，你想下。

那些马来家庭一点卫生观念都没有，很恶心勒！！

现在想起会冷颤！下次不去了...

回想起我最后一次去瀑布，是公公婆婆带我们去的.

婆婆呢，就准备食物

公公呢，就照顾我们和我们戏水

现在是我们带公公去了，牵起他的手一起去.

好了，预祝我学车成功吧

晚安

random and lifeless

2011-07-17T01:03:00.000+08:00

i should take more picture at college just to make my blog look more a bit interested.well.first semester is going to end and some friend i like so so much are actually from mass communication.damn. and they are going to be together but i am so so gonna be sad. it's okie MISS JOANNA TAN and MISS chui li is coming with me.i will try to make my life more interesting.WELL first exam semester is coming,project a lot and it's just squeeze my brain juice just to be more creative. damn is this suppose to be happened? like when we in creative courses.lack of cash now started to save some money for myself. and i feel like my dressing in college is getting boring and some people find it very sien already.i should make a change,let's imagine with short skirt~heels and big fat legs！hahaha

another list to do.

manage my time to do my works and all.
start to use my brain to think a lot of thing
go more library to read and do homework
be more hardworking
sleep early,wake up early
faster learn car and drive
be a computer pro (don't ask why)
spend more time with people who are important to me
let my life be more interesting.
not being too talkative but do more work while in class
maybe should start to do a vlog?
change my wearing style.
must wear watch wherever i go.be a habit.
faster change plan for my digi number.
improve in presentation skills. (i am sucks)
DIET! NO MORE INSTANT NOODLE IN MIDNIGHT OR DAILY!

that's it :) must do it.and if i fail.i die ..

good night peeps :)
even there is not much people over here reading my life stories.but i still love those reader who read me. good night. thankful and grateful about you being here :)
xoxo

i am glad that we finally try to work things out

2011-07-10T18:50:00.000+08:00

A very beautiful sunday

i was being boring like nothing to do..

wait i still have assignment? neh..haven't do and lazy nia

well...about yesterday..

thousand people's get arrested..and there is one bodyguard i heard is died.

because of the tear gun shot right on his face..

Rest In Peace pal.

and finally our prime minister said something

he thanks those police who "manage" so well

like seriously. Fuck You ,what are you fucking thinking.

those police manage very well?? and it just a little bunch of people?

dude,are you blind in counting people or have eyes sight problem

this is totally not a little bunch,and this is like so many people risking their life

to fight for free because you are so useless!

like seriously wanna hold a gun and shoot you you asshole

When reading newspaper,looking at facebook

picture's of police being violent are everywhere,like every picture's

god damn this Prime Minister we having now is totally a dumbass and a coward

i have no idea what the fuck he think he totally is.

and those police,i swear..they are open their eyes,and telling everyone

"we're good"

kanasai oi..

i mean like.really? if you are that good please be polite you asshole

don't say what? "Police panggil jalan, JALAN!!"

like what the fuck?

we are going to hunt you down.

don't hide like this

i will laugh at you you coward.

so shame to have you,you are such a shame in whole world now

the whole world are knowing you are an asshole :)

happy sunday and curse you to get ur karma ;p

2011-07-09T14:54:00.000+08:00

首相食言,威信何在?
政府霸权,民主何在?
警方滥权,公平何在?
土权威胁,和平何在?
巫青上街,理由何在?
马来西亚,我家还在?

T.G.I.F

2011-07-08T21:22:00.001+08:00

THANK GOD

Sandwich Assignment.

2011-07-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

i love cooking..but people always thinks that i can't cook..why la!

well,this is for my sandwich assignment.i wonder why i have to do this

for english class,yes.why cooking.

is a kind of activity hehe :)

i actually enjoy it by using very retarded way to cook la,peal skin of potatoes and all

well,in college i met some of new friends..like new life begin wahah :)

the food that we bought from cold storage.

there is cheese and etc.

meet eih shang and nassif :)

members in my group :)

well we suppose to cut the potato and boil it..

it will like be cooked faster cause we run out of time

this is like..FINALLY :D

thats it for the assignment day for sandwich.

oh! i haven't tell where is the location :)

it's at nassif hostel :)

well,i gotta go do my group work now :)

essay and report!! go go go!

xoxo

2011-07-07T17:17:00.000+08:00

Road closure on Saturday, 9 July 2011.
• Lebuh Ampang
• KLCC
• Bank Negara
• Dataran Merdeka
• Sogo
• Chow Kit
• Menara Sultan Ismail
• Masjid Negara
• Jalan Raja Chulan
• Jalan Ipoh
• Sentul
• Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman
• Jalan P.Ramlee
• Jalan Bandar
• Subang Jaya (Near Segi)
• Sunway Pyramid and Subang Parade
• The Federal Highway
• LDP
• Seremban Highway

I guess is the best don't go out...

i really worried that...the history about killing each other is gonna start.

i am so disappointed for having such "1 Malaysia" activity

i have nothing to say and i am so sad that why is it our country have such a politic issue

not we don't wanna forget about it,but whatever you people who made this politic issue is getting annoying

you fucking retarded,serious.you are retarded and i am shame to be one of it.

this is the solution? closing the road?avoiding?or what...

i am not a racist person and i have friends from different races..we were happy when 1 Malaysia came out

but what the fuck is this old century malay government did?

being smart and eat the cash.walao,this is not funny anymore

want us to give up and forget it? no way.

whatever shit you did now,might make you rich or whatever

but when you go into hell,you gonna get punishment from the judge in the hell

you gonna get it haizz...

what to do..this is malaysia..

2011-07-02T16:41:00.000+08:00

this is another brand new month babe's,for me is still new in college..(maybe not)

we are stepping half of the year of 2011 already! so fast!!

my college life made me so hard to breath.just first semester wei~going to die with so many things

i am so unlucky,my team member got robbed,now can't contact him for the group work,

haiz..so sad so sad...

now i have a individual essay on hand.report. presentation for sandwiches..

everything packed in my head.

wish that i can have more entertain post to show my readers.my life is too boring!

urghhh!!!!

do you guys watch kardasian reality show..its very funny for me,but good to watch

i swear,you have to go watch it..so so funny!!

why is it funny? because those daughters call their mom "drama queen and bitch"

i am just can't take it anymore..gotta watch and download some movie.

tata xoxo

2011-06-30T19:08:00.003+08:00

well.not really take my own picture when learning how to drive actually,the previous driving lesson is totally a fail on earth..today was alright but still have to learn to on the signal lights and the FUCKED UP clutch.i don't mean to swear but hell serious.how come a manual car be created anyways..so fucking hard to drive,some more,when you having driving test,the car will be more problem some more than this shitty car i learn today.holy shit.i am so worried until i can bbq myself.but today was alright but who knows next next week what will happened?

when you are stress with yours studies but you still have smile. it's a very hard thing,i am not bull shitting i just don't want to stress out and being emotional at the corner then nobody is there for me and i am gonna suicide and go to hell for my punishment from devil, like seriously,life are not meant to be automatic happy,you have to create it.you have to make it happened.this is what i been telling everyone i know and who would love to listen to my voice.we can make ourself happy actually.we can make people happy from their sadness,who knows you actually just help a person who nearly going to jump off a building and say hi to jesus? so i tell myself every time. "Smile,you won't lose anything by even smiling at your enemies who hate you for no reason :) "

I need to work out on my body,too many dress i can't fit in at all..i am so done when looking at my own fat obesity body shape,but there is curve~haha,i heard salmon can help in diet,is it true?i will try :) because i love salmon with all my life,if this can make me slim.

I AM GONNA EAT !

UNTIL I CAN'T REMEMBER MY NAME!

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well what i heard from yesterday is,my classmate Nassif

who live in his own hostel at section 17 petaling jaya, got robbed by two indian man

he lost his own laptop (don't worry,college did give him a dell laptop),two mobile phone

there is 3 cases in a day with same two people's

be careful people,don't walk alone or else they gonna robbed you.

the location they always show up is section 17 hostel area.

beware people.DON'T WALK ALONE

peak a boo my peepies and my readers :)

have a nice day and all :)

misses and kisses

xoxo (no gossip girl)

2011-06-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

that's why i said..i am a human being,not a fucked up bitch without any feeling ok..fucked up....

today learnt car..sucks to the max

just to say i hate manual car like holy shit! why is this shit created on earth but not auto!

urghhh!!!

2011-06-23T21:16:00.002+08:00

i want a new life

i want a better life without suffering so many thing like this.

i am done,i had enough.

i don't want this.

jesus,if you hear me.

please...

happy birthday my boy.

About me

2011-06-19T23:59:00.000+08:00

i am angeline and i am 18,just came out from a dramatic high school life,say goodbye with my haters from there.seriously,i hate having life like that,still miss high school though..why?because the memories can be as funny as a comedy movie,as dramatic like Kardasian Reality Show.it has season with it some more (speechless) well, i can be a very good friend,stay with you when you need me,and my wifey just came back from national service fro semester break just for few days,but i couldn't manage the time to meet her,college life is disturbing now,not as free as before.talking about friend,sometime's i can be lovely,sometime's i can be a bitch,no joke.serious.you maybe may think,how bitchy i can be,maybe not as bitchy as you (shh..) but still

Maybe something like this? yes i show middle fingers to my friend when they pissed me off,for me,i just don't care,just casual.but i don't call my friend bitch, something like :"aww you look good in that bitch,LOVELY!" -.- i mean like ,fuck you if you call me a bitch when i look lovely to you.i will just show a middle finger and ask you to lick it! urgh...

well,i am obese now.not in a very good weight.if my friend are reading this,this is truth,i don't wanna lie,because i am really fat and not good in controlling food that i love the most like instand noodle,i love noodle's bread with tuna and all..fattening right i know.still trying my best not to be like this.still haven't start my diet plan..sigh.useless me *smack head*urgh..!!! 50 KG 50 KG!

i am silly sometime's because i am that type of girl who believing something like..
keep your breath and make a wish when you in a tunnel.
make a wish in 11.11 am or pm.
or..
when i got your eye lashes i will force you to make a wish too!!
i love to wish.and hope it will come true.
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well college life is coming on week 3.
homework and assignment killing me,
presentation almost everyday.kill me please
meet new friend and i love the library and class
i can online with a perfect line as unifi!
love my college and new friends.
but i hate the homework that my dear lecturer's giving
please let me breath PLEASE...
good night people.loves lots
xoxo

~~mood swing to death,not stable now.sigh~~

2011-06-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

guess what,second week of college (sometime's i said school -.-) i meet some new friend and all
oh yea,presentation,my biggest fear of my life,it seems like everyday we are going to have a last minute presentation,do you get what's the "last minute" presentation? is like our lecturer give us a presentation without your preparation 0.0..holy shit for that to me,always not prepared
but even i prepared.still screw my thing la!! improve improve!!! darn that! wish me luck.

meet my class mate and group mate for tomorrow there is another guy actually,but he is just too quiet 0.0

damn~

yes i know i gained tons of weight! i am still trying to say bye to maggie!i try! and my hair.should i cut it? it look so annoying with long fringe now.sigh...should i cut it to bang?? or leave it? confused nahhh,and somemore lack of cash nowadays....haih...what to do what to do!!!!

meet stephanie lim ,a very cute lil girl :) well she's in my group for english 102 now,and both of us still confused that why are we here 0.0 but never mind,starts from the basic is good! :)

well,little stories for my college life, well,my star fishy fucking ex boyfriend is acting fucking cool in the school, acting that he don't know me some more.good la,i also don't want to let other people know that i actually know you you effing shitty asshole! i am not trying to mix with their issue but what is wrong with my star fishy,too deeply in love with this kind of jerk some more,she told me that she would not give up and don't care what am i gonna say,girl,it's touch for me but not for him ok,he will think you fell in his trap again! urghh...imma go make myself clear now,got to go :) but still active at my facebook twitter! go follow me! :)

IT'S ABOUT MY BLOG.MY BABY BLOG

2011-06-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

i am so so so over happy that i know how to drive ALONE WAHHAHA you know what i mean right people.i actually know how to drive on the road without any cars yet,new try :) teacher was saying i am good for first try :) well, i am happy,but i need to drive more smoothly...well college gonna start on monday already,nervous sia...don't know how..it's like so nervous...gonna have a pack time table for my own..wow wow wow,i was crying in my heart when i see this!!! well i was planning to go penang with him this next friday to sunday something..was still on the plan and still waiting approval from parents.hmm.why the eff i have to do that.. :\

well people,my dear baby blog is on process to change some new face..so it will look a bit cacat now..dont scold me.i need to change it for so long already,it look so what the hell man..so dark..i want something like pink...white..baby blue..something..not just this..well,it's gonna take me sometime to fix the link shit because it can't be saved don't know why?

is in the middle of the night now,going to sleep.

hope you guys can get some sleep after reading my blog without giving me comment.

thanks for reading it.but leave a comment i might say hi to ya

like oh my god.i got to go sleep.

good night my peeps and readers

~~and the haters :) grrrrr~~

xoxo

2011-05-31T02:26:00.000+08:00

my day of today is just normal..like SO SO NORMAL...went to college orientation day for today..well,things just go okay la i guess..met yaseer and charz and shafiq too!!! they are studying all different courses..well i study broadcasting in diploma by the way.just realize.i need to improve my english so much,imma buy some english book like MAGAZINE,NOVEL AND WATCH ENGLISH SHOW EVEN MORE etc..sounds useless...i took the english test at college today just to know that will i take another extra english class for me.BOOOO ANGELINE SUCKSS..."WHATEVR" well,i looked at my mirror...my body is so huge..so fat..urgh...imma take some exercise before i go college tomorrow since is gonna start by 10am :) it's 2 am in the morning huhuhu.imma go get some sleep...oh yea.not forget to mention,i passed my undang.and now it's suppose to let me know how to drive.but hor...this teacher just now HE MANAGE THE TIME FOR ME NOT I MANAGE THE TIME LOR,and you know whats the worst.he is being mean and so rude! i think i pay for you to let you order me? some more you using that tone to talk to me and my mom,you better becareful that you will lose this job!

oh yea! where is the acid man go now..i haven't heard his news for quite sometime for me..
it's dangerous ok my reader and people.
do take care and beware this *dirty words* OK?
try not to swear hehe :)
stay clean OH NO! stay healthy and happy
do drink more water ok,since the sun loves to show out so well :)
night / morning.. :)

2011-05-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

昨晚去了堂姐过夜..

一直玩化妆品叫我画眼线..

不过，总觉得我们两个不像以前那样粘对方了

她最后宁愿打电话给朋友也不理我了..

这张算勉强拍了一张当纪念了..

还有还有..昨晚看来曼联队与巴塞罗那的那场比赛..

失望透了..带着那么疲惫的身体看着你们的比赛却输了..

没关系啦，都赢了那么多场这场应该没关系的

在看比赛的同时，我还真的把大伯的家当成自己的家..

不好意思哦，下次不会了

喝了一杯热美禄，继续加油看比赛

最后真的干那赛！

算了算了！去睡觉算了！

当我准备睡的时候..堂姐突然在说梦话呢～

恐怖呐～～～～～

算了，她醒来的时候说我大呼很大声..

是吗？ *疑惑*

带着完全睡不醒的状态去看大伯母的的妹妹/姐姐的新家

还真的很新，装修都还没装修好..

蛮大乱一下的..他们一家人的男人们也动手帮忙了

满头大汗，也很辛苦...

看了也觉得佩服

不过...说实话..我和堂姐的表亲们...真的很难说话和认识..

就算看了他们几百遍都还是那么多陌生..实话哦

我真的很努力想跟他们说说话..真的不行呐

我也觉得算了..不想再努力了

几努力都只会招人白眼而已..

今天就这样，灰头灰脸的一天

明天要去学院报到了！！！

祝我明天可以有个美好的一天..

上帝啊观音啊，保佑保佑我网上卖的衣服能好卖！！

又这样..过了一天....

2011-05-28T12:09:00.000+08:00

觉得自己的生活越来越沉闷了,爸爸说，上了学院会没有自己的时间，希望如此(不敢讲是大学...觉得自己不是厉害的人..所以讲是学院啦）..在家里..很多人都拿自己的孩子炫耀，拼了老命把孩子丢出国..实在佩服....
我呢？不是一个天才，不过也不是一个蠢材啦...只是没那么聪明拿全科A，也没有蠢到拿全部不及格...觉得自己好像一个问题小孩了（18了还是小孩？）想了很久，一天也就这样过去了..
很无奈，觉得自己是一个很没用的人...也觉得跟爸妈拿钱很丢脸...想赚钱却没时间...脑浆快爆炸了...我的读者们...你们默默地读着我的部落格,可以告诉我..有什么办法可以一边读书和赚钱吗？我真的真心希望我可以被发觉，我的人很简单也开始学着更乐观去面对身边的事情....
我读的broadcasting是比较没有数学的科目，比较冲向音乐电台电视台的那种..希望能读好...
我很希望我考车的事情能快点！他妈的拖延了整几个月都还没搞定！现在拿L了都没学到车,下个礼拜就好快点啦！我想快点学好，我知道自己不厉害！很紧张，很期待自己将过着24小时不够用的时候...因为会很充实...

总之呢..一天就会很浪费的过去要是你什么也不做

我现在开始..要做很多很多有意义的事情，不浪费我生命里的每个24小时..

2011-05-26T10:26:00.000+08:00

oh shit..i started to miss school again..haiz...i am just so weird..like...very weird..why other ex schoolmate of mine can just like..yay!school end, but i just...can't?hm..i miss michelle,raznil,amira,yiyi and kahyian ect...
damn a lots of people to miss already,simon went to california hunting girls (ehem...study)...and raznil went to german?or where ah???like everyone leaving and studying already,me leh?i have to wait until may30 gonna start class,i feel nervous and...with complicated feeling...

ohh i miss school time,we have fun like kiddo or something...eat play learn like kid,JUST KID WITHOUT WORRING ANYTHING!...haizz....but now i have to mange my own thing, and i know its a much to learn how to do my stuff without parents...but i admit i still wanna be a baby girl leh.... :(

i used to hate going to school and i regretted...i used to skipped school without a reason,and acting i am sick...but sometimes i really do...but now i will just do everything for going back to school..the feeling i feel so bad for the teachers now...oh man...i wanna head back to school!!!!

me with my bottle.. :)

typical me wahahaha

2011-05-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

i feel like so..hmm..last moment to be so free or whatever?? just miss justin bieber concert by out of sudden. he is just too awesome..way too awesome..too bad he's taken,so am i duh...

but i am not those die hard (or heart?) fans to go for him like telling everyone my blood is purple?

*or am i just too lame to mention about justin bieber now...

oh yea..some people said my boy dress up like justin bieber and hot like justin bieber,thank you for telling me that...how on earth that i did not know how my boy look like..lol....but thanks still and a lot.

well,time just flies..like..so fast..already been years together...go through like so much,and i've seen worst of you and you seen worst of mine.we just knowing who are we already...we just go on normal.or normal than any others.well,college gonna start very soon,you gonna busy with your studies...me too...gonna rush work and no time to go out maybe? and shit the worst,i haven't got my licence yet and all..urgh.not even learn how to drive yet!.damn that fella those wasting all my time along just to effing wait...like.seriously,is it make sense that you can take around few months just to effing arrange my time to learn how to fucking drive?

no matter what,imma drive!imma learn!imma get a fucking P licence!

well,things are hard to go through...even it just look effing easy..why things so hard...so hard to success..

urgh thats why...life is a fucking bitch to score everything..urgh!!!!but nothing gonna stop me..

and can't stop me to love you boy...good night people.love lots..

*sorry for posting such a short post plus no picture for it....*

2011-05-23T17:03:00.000+08:00

there is something in my mind.i am nervous and panic for college life is coming very soon..the feeling is like wow....like very hard to describe....i am gonna have a free new Dell laptop cost arounf 4 thousand something for me to use 2 and a half year!!yeap :) 2 and a half year to own a free laptop to use :) but the bad news is..today i went to check out for it.and the news is..

the man said:"miss,sorry to tell you that,your laptop is actually old model.and..it's v3000,how long you been using it?"

and i said :"around 5 years already"

and the man said :"you are lucky to use it for god damn 5 years because all laptop can be only used around 2 and half years or 3 years max,so miss you are very lucky to have a strong laptop to service you for so long already.."

i said:"what....*mind blank for that moment plus tears gonna burst or something*

the man said :" i am very sorry miss,this is what we can do already,the laptop is old"

like people,sounds like dramatic scene from hospital or something..and my mom is...sigh..guess what she said?

:" wen,go home and dig a hole and buried your laptop ba!"

i was speechless and..what the fuck?you asking me to buried my own laptop! but it's heart broken to heard that from the service man...this laptop is being with me around 5 years already...i am so sad..like have feelings together,even sometime swearing at it that why so slow la and this and that...sometimes smack it somemore..uhhh god..why do this to me la..i can't face the fact la... :'(

well,wipe away my tears and as long my laptop can't watch youtube or watch any video and all...but can on twitter and facebook only la..but i have to use it until school open day only can get my free laptop..urghh...i don't feel like blogging already...bye reader,will do update very soon without pictures already..

2011-05-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

here's the recently me with my new born baby cousin

it's a boy :)

dad was super happy for holding a baby boy after so long..

keep teaching my auntie how to take care the baby or breastfeeding

yes,i mentioned BREASTFEEDING,and yes is my dad and mom teaching.

i was like.."dad,seriously?"

my dad like, "if not me,you won't be that fat lor okie!!"

i was speechless for that...

and can you believe that,she living in a suite room for her own and her baby only!

so good :)

i mean like..so so grand la..

the moment parents was ask to go for visit her in the night

i was expect would be like very pahlia hospital you know

but is at PRINCE COURT! so not pahlia at all~

is like living in 6 stars hotel and enjoy their service!

well forget it :)

do you guys know about 21/5 is gonna be world end

i am still alive here,what do you think about the world end thingy there?

for me,i don't know when is gonna happened i just stay positive and happy always

and..

i swear to god i wanna be thin like those tall girl with nice body shape!

fuck my life for having tall height but fat body!

alright,will be a short post today and not really a thing to mention

BUT I WENT MIDVALLEY TODAYY :)

SAW THE PIRATE OF THE CARRIBEAN 4 decorated ship and all :)

took few picture for it :)

i realize i just look terrible with any cloth already..

really need to go exercise already la!!

oh guys please do go visit my tumblr as well :)

"CLICK IT"

OK BA :)

GOOD NIGHT PEOPLE!!

just found some old pictures from somewhere else...

2011-05-21T15:35:00.000+08:00

2011-05-17T12:32:00.000+08:00

we were young and in love.

even it's been years it still the same.

things just change after my mistake begin.

you changed.

i do changed but not hating you but accept who you are.

knowing how jerk are you sometimes.just sometimes.

but loving you most of all the time

even i know you won't do anything to fight for our relationship.

we were..so trust each other...even now i am still believing in you.

since hate been build,nothing is gonna make you stay.

can't believe that was our last to hold each other hand when going out.

that were sweet and unforgetable.

just like remember when going out to every place at kl..

we were holding hand wherever we walk we run.

hand was holding tight.no let go..

i always think of..we were going on forever...dream on our wedding and family..

this is just a dream.a dream would never happened to us.

istilloveyouboy

2011-05-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

am i bitch enough to own them all?

well,ignore me actually

i am drunk.for taking beers..

because some reason

(you can discover for my diary,so dream on it)

all i should said.eff my life and thats it.

i need justin bieber voice now

i love the way he said "sweet thing,i love you"

so much better even i am drunk.

see?i am really drunk.

ignore me please...

OH I OWN COOKIES MONSTER AND ELMO!

I AM SUCH A BITCH 0.0

damn.......

my mood is swing like *&^$@%^&(^%@! now..

i get a call from wifey yesterday

she said that she miss me..aww..

and she claim that she cried when she heard my voice actually

i wanna go singapore without parents i dont care!

2 and a half month gonna be without you in my twitter ,facebook and phone

2011-05-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

today is talking about my babe wifey little farewell

she is gonna leave us to pahang for national service for 2 and a half month.

i wonder why she can just stay 2 and a half month.

maybe she minus away the holiday i guess?

well that day was thursday.and i am super to update this

thanks for yiyi ,tong and angela coming for my babe wifey little farewell outing

give a big bow for that

i do have fun that day with ya all.

its been so freaking long since a friends outing with you guys

so yeap.

lets start the day of thursday

well,i was the latest girl to be there

thanks for kepong out of suddenly jam

thanks for mother fetching me to one utama

another bow for my mom.

thank you so much for fetching me there

well,everyone was waiting me

i am so so sorry,another bow ok

well we went to cinema gold class counter for taking my reserved tickets there.

yiyi thought i was reserve a gold class tickets for fast 5

haha,dream on yiyi :)

since the movie is gonna be on 1.50 pm

it just 12 something.

so we decide to play bowling

and the funniest things is..

none of us are bowling pro except low yiyi haha

well,mine is green.the most light ever

(still heavy la)

but i dont know which shit that the orange want..

damn smart hor tong

and here a little stories to tell

i am happy for tong and angela had just reunite together

i thought my outing was help anyways...

but i am happy for created a chance to make you both to see each other

deepest from my heart to wish both of you stay strong with each other no matter what

:')

alright back to the bowling shit.

we are so lousy in this

for first time

but we are getting better and better

and decide kahyian wifey come back we will go out for bowling again!

it's fun to play seriously

imma pull my boy to play one day i swear

haha

she's good you know :)

when i went toilet

i realize..my game is finished ad,i was thinking i suppose play 2 more times!

who play ah! kahyian and yiyi was aside freaking laughing

i was like,AT LEASE YOU CURI PLAY ALSO GET SOME MARKS MA!

kahyian played minus for me 0.0

i was like imma revenge...

and in the end...i get some marks for her..

sui po ah you,smack your ass!

and we all went for this 2 hours movie!

is very awesome movie...

the main cast is freaking awesome!

i was like wohoo!damn nice :)

i rate 5 stars for this movie

super awesome!

after movie,we thinking what to eat..

so we ended up to eat some sushi :)

it was pretty fun for the day actually even we did not really do much of thing

oh yea,forgot to mention

i went the super market bought myself some tuna fish and some crackers

damn nice and its low fat!

imma buy it again if i go buy again

while eating we all chit chat,

and when angela mothers is gonna reach,

so i teman angela going out to wait her mom

i can't just walk her there and leave right?

so yea,we waited angela's mother...

for..few minute or ten i guess..

in the end her mother was looking like -.-

never mind.tong said her mother is fine to be talking anyways?

ok..let wifeys edited picture do some talking..

awesome right,all of these have to thanks for yiyi camera and kahyian wifey's edit skill

i did not do anything for those pictures except posing

ahahaha :)

but yiyi caught a lot of natural smile of us :)

below are me and kahyian wifeys lessbian project

ahahaha :)

well,as you can see in this picture,friendship never dies <3

both of you are way too too awesome in my life :)
i love you both and all of us have a great day on thursday

when kahyian wifey back again for bowling eh?

here's some words for my wifey

kahyian,although you just leaving for 2 and a half month

i am still gonna worry for you in these months.

because you gonna be there alone of your own

your auntie,me or either yiyi won't be by your side to contact you

but i guess you are smart enough to make new friends -.-?

lol...started to be a bit jealous that will you make another wifey over there?

LOL JOKE

well,since you said you are going to have fun and some challenge in there

i hope you will take care your own very well,and have fun

i don't mind you still chubby but i want you to be healthy to come back

remember when you come back for another outing?

must work this outing out ok?

bowling and movie's shopping!

loves lots to you wifey and take care <3

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topic of out of topic :

boy,i hope we do work things fine

i wish the past which bring us apart could be disappear.

even is too painful to forget or forgive

i hope they will disappear..

i want to hold our hand tights like we used to be last time.

i don't mind there is a lot more quarrel we gonna make in the future.

but it shows we care each other when we shouted out the love

we made mistakes together..

we cried,we hated,we shouted,we been through

it's been years...i hope our hand still tight..

i love you

xoxo

We were so young..

2011-05-14T17:24:00.001+08:00

OMG..WE WERE SO YOUNG THAT TIME 0.0

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2011-05-10T23:03:00.000+08:00

what i was trying to tell was..

it's so tiring

to be a person that not myself..

cried for this like million billions of times..

there is many people giving me advice nowadays.

i do put those advice in heart.

i did not meant to hurt anyone now.

i did not.

feel like..taking all the things and leave..

but i will be so cruel to do so.

so i give up.

i being such a awful person

for living.for obeying everything i shouldn't

being stupid,naive and all.

i am helpless..

sad...because parents wasn't showing any lovely to me

i just stare and go away...

:'(

god..can you help me out of this

my pain is painful than words

words can't say it out at all..

no mood to type.

the pain is just so hard to tell it out from words.

i couldn't figure any words to describe

how i feel now...